goodbye my valentine, i was never meant to love
you turned your face aside me, when i began to look above
i had hope toward a dark and clouded winter sky
but the seasons changed and left, leaving me nothing but this lie
that this month was ours and for us to never say goodbye
where did you go december? you left me lying here in tears
bring back the rain and dark clouds that would wash away my fears
bring back the autum leaves, that seem to never come
bring back the bitter cold, that made my broken heart feel so numb
bring back the december weather with its icy cold air
bring back my love, which was never really there

-Victor Jih                  2/1/05

heewwwlooo people!!! tis I.... yes tis I.... for once more in my life time i have cheated death and am back to say that tis I again!aahh... wow the many that has happened since i last updated... i have been head over heals doing a bunch of crap, fall plays killing me now, and my face is covered with make-up, im sore from dress rehearsals its 10 pm and i just got home. Im workign alot on dancing now hip hop, jazz, and ballet, but my hip hop teacher dissapeared into some forest so now im taking street jazz instead, omg dancing is so manly, you know i thought of doing football before but i realized i was to manly for that. so i did dancing!!! lol i am THE MANLY DANCER. oOo well i gotsa go but Omg there are some really cool pictures of some fashion designers i just found called heaterette, and some other people too..... ok you know what this isnt working so ill jsut give you the links.. hold on!

http://www.papermag.com/stylin/fashion/shows/02spring/ny/heatherette/heatherette.html

http://www.newyorkrunwayshows.com/spring2003/heatherette/photos.htm

haha ok well enjoy peeps, ill update more in the future once hell week is over, be sure to catch the three musketeers coming out  nov 18 19 and 20 at the cupertino high school auditorium at  7 pm with a special matinee at 1 pm on sat. buhbyee!!!!

love always,

THE MANLY DANCER

hey guys, i herd about the news just today ( monday) after school. gosh... umm.......... im really depressed, im really going to miss her a lot... it happened so quickly, i didnt even get a chance to say goodbye. i wish i had talked to Elissa more often, and asked if she needed help with nething. or just be a better friend, but i didnt take the oppurtounity to do that, i was just to caught up with my own life that i forgot to care for others. everytime you talk to someone, love, and care for them like its the last time, because that might just be the last time. keep in contact with everyone even if you dont know them that well, ask them how there doing, and be caring. last year i lost elliot, this year i lost elissa, who will i lose next year? love you lot Elissa

well heres a poem i wrote,

Keep running out into the desert in the middle of nothing and scream out into the air

Let your voice echo and screech across the land to those who truly care

Only to find that they were never really there

May the gathered tears you shed at night be the blood of your strength

And bleed a mighty river in which to swim its eternal length

Swim this mighty river no matter how far it flows

Hold on, to your faith in nothing, knowing not where it goes

Swim its current till you see the place where the river meets the tinted red skys

And find that only at the bottom of this waterfall is where your peace will lie

Grab the vine that hangs above you, the sifter of life waiting to take its toll

And upon this sifter sift apart your body and your soul

And with the wind your soul be carried away

Away from the hate, away from sorrow, away from the tears, to awake into another day 

-victor jih      4/27/04               

                         DEDICATED TO ELLISA HORTON

                                             1989-2004

                                 Rest in peace Elissa love you forever more.